wad i value most...

knocky knocky...
its goina be a looonngggg post here so bear with it yea ;)

fer the past 1 week, i've been practicing, dancing and practicing and dancing.
nothing else.
some reasons i do this?
- to past off the time,
- to avaoid getting too drenched in my own problems, in other words, get myself distracted.
- to do wad i like to do!

well,
there are some things which i like to share about my dance,
i've been achieving alot throughout the duration of this year
and i must say, the rest of us hip hop IG are the better ones than me,
coz before, they cant dance,
now?
they have improved alot and im Very Very proud of their achievements.

their company has been exhilirating throughout the whole of the time spent.
and the bonds are getting even closer now,
proof is that we share amongst each other, help wen others is in need.
nothing can compare them.

Groove Inc and Style Methodz are the love of my life yall!

--------------------------------------

read thru Joann's blog about values in life.
realli touching story,
the following are the 5 most valuable things to me currently in my life...

1st - Friends
2nd - A simple life
3rd - A good education
4th - A good job
5th - Respect

actualli Girlfriend was supposed to come in second but since i dun have any, not yet rather, its not included.
wana noe why families are not included?
its because i dun have a proper family.

but smth Myra said got stuck in my head
"it cud b a blessing in disguise.. so take it in stride k.. and look, ur lack of family l0ve, is replaced by you having so many great friends, and their families too.. so instead of one family. u get many families looking after you. isnt that a bless?"

wad she said was purely true,
and that i juz realised that.
i thank Myra so much... :)

and smth happened which made me realised something.
wen im worried, i tend to go the extend that no one ever think im capable of,
like searching for someone in the middle of the night.

i just wana let others know how i feel these few days apart from everything,
this has been going on for three years,
and it usually happens when its near Hari Raya.

wen i go to like geylang or smth,
i tend to get jealous of others,
not because of couples, but because of family.
im an unfortunate child having an unfortunate life.
seeing families together somehow mad me down,

wen was the last time i ate along with my family? years!
wen was the last time i was happy with my family? years!
wen was the last time i ever went out with them? years!
wen did i ever had a simple and lovable family life? NEVER!

and wen some said that they are goina have dinner with family, it somehow inflict a damage upon me. i never realli had that family bonding.
its like im an abandoned child.
i noe that there are families willing to share the family love for me,
but then i still dun realli feel the real thing
is just i need the real thing!! for goodness sake.

all go down with a family, seeing others happily with ther family just made me sad.
when am i ever going to end this problem of mine.

guess got nth else to say here.
i noe i dun rant everything in here.
feeling it should be reserved.
just keep it to myself.

thanks for taking the time off to read

Labels: after all these is through with, im sure i am definitely gona be a stronger and more independent person