theres nothing left for me to say,
to make u come back home.
when u already got my heart keyed to u,
and then the keys thrown away.

was it smth i said,
to make u turn away?
to have make u walked out.
tell me, help me find a way to get u back.

been many days now,
cant simply get u outta my mind,
how i wished i can stroke ur wavy hair,
or even enclosed those beautiful lips of urs to mine.

im not the man i used to be anymore,
im now more fragile than ever.
i may be strong physically,
emotionally im weak, weaker than those wilted roses

i never thought i'd need u there when i fall.
alone are those days when i need my loved one right by my side.
the words u used to say to me to get me thru those hard times.
make me feel the warmth and comfort of being around u.

when u walk away,
i hoped and wished that u would turn around,
a sign that im still there,
there in ur heart.

i dont want to see u.
but i do Need to see you.
what more can there be said,
i miss you.

all i ever wanted was for u to noe,
everything i do i get my heart and soul.
i cant hardly breathe, i wanted to embrace u oh-so tightly.
coz im feeling the cold.

but girl u should noe.

the days will all be empty,
nights will be so long.
i dunnoe whether ur feeling me,
coz right there in ur heart is where my heart belongs.

you may say u didnt make much of an impact on my life.
but do u noe how much our 2 months means?
even so i ask many questions.
i never ever did ask for anything more than your love.

have you ever wondered?
how our life could have been if we never meet?
coz i rightfully noe without you coming in my life,
life could have never been easy for me.

friends told me to let u go, to let u be,
i told myself i would,
but something in my heart just wouldnt let u go.
selfish? i guess i am.

do u still need me to say more,
to tell u how badly i need you?
i never felt this way before.
not in a long time.

not for the past 3 1/2 years.

i noe, we were only just dating...
for u maybe its a norm,
unfortunately i think otherwise.
i apologise for having tt mindset.

maybe i've yet to mature mentally,
to may have experience the good things in life.
coz if u dun noe,
my life hasnt been good never in my life.

im such a misery.
i dun feel the love of a parent.
i dun have a proper family,
i never had one.

even though i dun any love in me at all,
i still can give people love,
whatever tts left of me.
im still willing.

even still im staying with my dad,
i still dun feel loved at all,
dad is not in his right state of his mind.
mum is busy with her own family.

if dad could only understand that his presence meant so much to me,
unfortunately, he cant.
its 3.33 am of 23rd march 2006.
im thinking, reflecting.
on every 23rd.

this is because the 23rd means so much to me. if anybody could understand.

im sorry i caused so much misery to everyone, cause them trouble.
i never should have existed at all.

im sorry...

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