the reason...

accomplished quite a number of stuffs today...
learnt the proper 1990s,
entrance to flare...
nearly accomplished frontflip...
manage to get few footworks and their flows...
good enuff for Floorskillz?
nah...

maybe i should focus on choreographing for DanceWorks, which as according to Adel.. must be completed by next week!

hip hop choreo, bboy routine, and mixing of the songs...

sounds like FUN!

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i cant see tmr any more...
i dun wana drag this sorrows any longer...
feeling so fucked up...
living in this so fucked up life...

i cant see the distance at all...
no future lies ahead for me...
i dun see any happiness...
what more living then...

aint goina be at anybody any longer...
i've experience too much to predict whats next...
destroying families?
breaking bonds?

rahh!!
life's unfair ya tink so...
yea u may say life's never been fair....
be in my shoes then...
how would you tink i'll be feeling?

why would this happen to an 18 yr old kid.
with no memories of childhood?
with no proper parenthood?
or even a happy moment of family life?

yes maybe its bound to to me since birth...

yet and still...
there are still others who come with intentions of destroying my life than it already is...

Labels: i wish not to wake up anymore

alone, for the goodness of others
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thats it...

i've had enuff...

first,
i hurt her...

how stupid was i?
wad could i possibly be thinking?
the one i love most hurt by me?
the last person i would have wanted to hurt... is now hurt???

F@#K lar...

and to make it more worst...
destroyed a relationship between a son and a father?
all because of me?
coz of my persistent staying...

i noe its a noble thing friend u did...
but what could possibly be worst than destroying ur r/ship with ur father?

im such a super bad person, having bad life...
and YET! pulling everyone else's life down?

i hate my life...
so much that i want to end it just like that!

zeella...

im so sorry...
you said you wanted space...
you can have yours... now and whenever you want it...
i did too much to hurt u...
i dun wish to hurt u no more...
you had too much wound that even the smallest mistake can hurt ur precious soft heart...
you deserve better...

i suck at love...

im so sorry...
take care of yourself wen im not around...

Labels: wad other options do i have?

this song is dedicated to Zeella.:)

and peeps. i am in love. in true love.

and i no longer care about anything else now.

finally the 1.5 carat gold and stainless steel necklace has found its owner.
CHRIS BROWN

"I Wanna Be"

[Intro:]
[Sigh] Look. I know we've been friends for a while now.
But, I just feel like I can confess to you.
It's gonna be hard but.
Alright here it goes...

[Verse 1:]
Imagine that the pillow that you cried on was my chest,
and the tissue that you wiped your face with was my hand.
Girl, imagine: if you needed advise about some other guy, I'm the one that comes to mind.
Not tryna hear you tell nobody that I'm just a friend,
just trying to make sure I'm that body that you call your man,
and anytime you need a shoulder -- it's yours, night or day,
but what I'm tryna say is, I wanna be...

[Chorus:]
The last number you call late at night (said I wanna be),
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah..
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be...

[Verse 2:]
Would it be cool?
Would you mind if I called you my boo,
what if the next whip you was pushin' was the one I bought for you?
Can I be the one that meets your pops and take your mama shoppin', be the only one they like?
Have you thought about it -- wait -- really thought about it?
Maybe you should take some time
call your girls and talk about it, yeah.
'cause I done already made up my mind,
don't need no more time to know if I wanna be with you,
I wanna be...

[Verse 3:]
Put me on your screen saver, all over your myspace and make me one of your top favorites,
that's where I wanna be...
The one you cryin' for (stand up for and fightin' for)
wanna be your good, bad, love, hate girl..

[Chorus]

[x2]
Cross my heart hoped to die, on everything that's good,
I'm gonna do you right, show you right, get this understood.

[Chorus]

Girl I wanna be, I wanna be.... [sigh]
I wanna be, I wanna be...

Labels: i wana be yours...