yea, take advantage of me during this point.
for the moment im back on my feet.
i'll make sure i set things the way i want it to be.
try me.

it breaks my heart when mum said that it could be the so called consequence.
let me try to put this.

when Dad took his "realm and divine knowledge"
he broke the laws of it.
it caused him to be mentally unstable.
and some of the consequence of breaking the laws of it might be....
according to my mum, is you cant see your own children.
for fear of either party suffering or people surrounding me suffering.

and if i cant see my dad, that means i cant see my grandma coz she's staying with him!

late grandma on mum's side passed away,
dad quit his job,
grandma on dad's side sickly.
grand dad passed away...

it couldnt be a coincidental incident duncha think so.

i wana run away from all these, but where?

and i manage to broke one family up along the way?
it is too good to be a coincidence.

y decide the way i should live?
Im still capable of choosing what's right for me and what's not.
i know whats best for me, and what's not.

and im not tryna humiliate.
im stating what's right..
i have the right to express it too.

well at least ur much more happier now.

it kills me seeing all this and hearing all that.
and most of all it kills me not to be able to do things like usual.

Labels: the breaking point of life.