im goin out of my mind...
maybe im just paranoid...

where were you when i needed you the most.
each time this phone rings,
my heart skipped it beats hoping it was from you.
each and every time, its not.

a guy in despair,
thats what i am now.

honestly, i have nothing else to prove...

i dun have one proper family,
i dun even have a place call home.
each and every time i see people goin out with their families,
in the corner of my mind, how i wish i could have one single moment of that.

i dun own a car, nor a bike.
i dun have money...

i dun even have the looks...
girls would only have the first look when they pass me.

i dun dress fancily,
what's left in my wardrobe, is all that.
i dun own a nike, adidas or puma apparels.

im not even close to being a good bboy or a dancer...
people would just see me as a typical noob.
if u reader/s think im good, think again.

i dun own anything else except for something the size of my fist.

My Heart.

its all i own...

though there's not much love in that precious heart of mine.
still, i still dun mind sharing it with others.

and so, i cant give anything else but just love, care and concern.

im sorry i cant give in to everyones' needs.

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sometimes, i wonder
did you ever consider giving my little needs a little thought.

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i have choices...
some of the choices would make you hate me for doing so...
or even some where it'll completely destroy your life...

but i chose to act maturely.

its all about making the right choices for both you and me.

i stayed, believing that you're worthy of it.

on the morning of 22nd august,
you told me to live my life and carry on alone.

don't you still understand that my life is about you...

that very night i showed how bad you mean to me,
how bad i need you.

don't that prove you enough...
well i guess nothing is ever enough yeahh...

get this right...
im not tryna destroy ur image...
nor im tryna humiliate you...
well maybe i should.
its the only way i can get thru u yeah?

you were the one who brought this to yourself...
believe me.

i tried getting thru to you.
but to no avail.
how else but here?

im not a guy who thinks that "ouh i've done my part and that's that"
friends whom know me well enough will noe that i'll ensure the other party will do their part as well.

theres lots more...
i need not say anything else.

i just gotta talk this with you.
if you have got your reasons,
i wana hear it out.

coz everything happens for a reason.

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and boy, showering her with gifts and words is indeed very sweet of you.

but believe me, the other party will come to you for the wrong reasons...

the other party might deny this but you wont know boy, you wont know.

im not saying im any better, im not even as good as you. not even close.

but i've tasted enough salt to know what's happening without even people telling, or even know what's goina happen.

get this clear, i aint having no tiff with ya.
i'll highlight again...

I've got nothing to prove..

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today when i wake up,
you didnt look the same as last night.
and it just dun feel right anymore.
and girl when you wake up,
i wont be there for you no more.

if one is making a mistake, let one do it so that one can realise it oneself.

i dun wana be saying "i told you so"...

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hate me for all you want,
i've nothing else to lose.

yes people, you are right, im nothing, and i dun have anything.

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