Its been a week since school started.
yet i feel as lonely as ever.
no early morning greetings from Granddad.
no smile from him to just make my heart yearn more.

All the duration of the journey from home to school,
was spent listening to the mp3.
i feel like a loner.
but as much as i want company, i'd rather be left alone.

today's break-fast was spent with my Juniors along with Soffian my president
over at Banquet Causeway point.
indeed some company.

and yes,
some of you might know it already somehow.
i've cleared things with Aisyah.
i've experience the best life has to offer with her.
compared to the bad moments, they are still nothing if i were to remember the happy moments.
Indeed Aisyah made my life more happier.

i've been blinded and drowned by my own fear that i caused people surrounding me, including Aisyah, to suffer.
once again,i admit my mistake and i apologise for all those unwanted things i've done.

but there are more happier things in life that we both can look forward to.
so we both made the choice of goin our seperate ways.
all good or bad things have to come to an end eventually right.
im glad we both end it on the right note.

now i must be all focused and geared up for my fellow babies,
i want to train them hard and ensure that even though how bad or good you are,
i will try my very best to make all of them even.

because someone said to me which is stucked to my head till forever.
"you are only as good as your weakest crew member"

so guys,
better buck up before i buck you up.

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thank you Mrs Silly Sunshine

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