whats your 2009 resolution?
mine was simple.
i just want a better year. thats all.
rather not ask much as im afraid of being disappointed.

i had a great start to 2009.
RhythmicStylezCrew decided to warm up my welcoming into the crew by having the welcome battle.
as expected, the battle was to happen there, and then.
which is moments after the stroke of the clock, at the very place i was, vivocity's rooftop.
it went on real good, real tiring, just really real.
went on for good 2 hours(i think) plus alongside Faque and OneROC.
surprisingly after that tiring long battle, i still yearned for more. tho i was shivering at that time.
but all in all, i had a wonderful welcoming and shoutouts to RSC for being with me while i was down and pouring at one point of time.
i cant help reminiscing my 2008.
big shoutout to Oneski for encouraging me further
"i have ur back bro, and you have my back too, so who has who's front?"
tho i don't really understand it, i knew it meant well...
big ups for brother Camou Artist without whom, im not who i am right now.
and to the rest of the RSC family, thank you for letting me be a part of the fam.

other than that i spent my weekend at home to make up for the week i wasn't really at home most of the time.

and to make my 2009 a lot more happier, i came to class as early as 8.15. when class starts at 8.30. which for me, is very early:) tho i slept at 4.

i started realising one thing about myself recently.
i've changed to become a more quiet person, i dun really know why.
last time, i was very bubbly, very chirpy, would try to disturb anyone whenever i can, laughing out loud and will always try to participate in anything that can be participated (even joining conversations).

but eversince the last Hari Raya i realised,
that usually for hari raya, i will go and sit in the living room to chat especially with late grandma or even finish the Kuih Tart on the jar. but on the last, all i did was to come to my aunt's place, sleep wake up to salam2 then went back home.
as soon as i reached my other grandma's place, i went to sleep again cos i dun feel like facing anyone.

last week when i went out with my Bukit Panjang homies, we chilled everywhere and when we sit, we will usually chat and talk and stuffs. what i did was to sit at another corner, listening to mp3 and just never get involved in the conversation.
till to the point where one of my friends ask "dude, what happened to you? why you like so quiet?" i didnt understood what he said but only recently i did.

only yesterday at my house, one of my uncle's ex-wife came over, she was the one who looked after me when i was young and i'll always play around with her childrens, my cousins.
when she came i sat and one side of the living room and plainly watch the tv when she asked a few questions, all i answered was a one or two word answer.
can anyone explain this trauma...

ernie's say its about my hormones, maybe it is, maybe not. but i think it has something to do with what had happened recently.

ouh well...

the line has already been drawn
the line has already being made clear long time ago
please understand why its there...

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