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Monday, May 18, 2009, 11:12 AM

It takes effort and strength, even in numbers for people to cheer you up or even to get yourself cheered up. But it just takes one mini incident or a few sentences to bring your morale down right to negativity. Its odd how so small the words are so powerful in doing so.

These few weeks my morale has been tested. Repeatedly i've been brought to the ground just by some unappreciative FRIENDS. Because of words stabbed right in the face and dead at the back. Words that i dun expect it would come from them.

but i've been thinking, with tanya's help.
Since when did Ash bothers about what other people think of him? or since when does Ash listens to what others talk about him?

He never bothers about what other people think about him, he never listens to what people tell him. he doesnt even do what he was told to do so.
what he likes doing is taking matters into his own hands, act like one big muhfcuker and even handles matters that is not his to handle.
This is the reason why i've achieved whatever i want to achieve, however doing what he likes done.

That would be Me.

whatever you do, you cant change me nor you can cheat me.
like theres once Ragu told me of this Indian saying...
"you can bent a plant to make it grow towards wherever you want it to grow,
however you can bend a tree thats all full grown and thick"
well its not as if you guys never worked with me before.

i wana see how you people intend to make my life miserable, when it already is.

Labels: Fcuk this shit, imma do whatever i want and destroy what needs destruction.

Sunday, May 10, 2009, 1:25 AM

one at a time,
picking up slowly one by one.
slowly but surely,
i will accomplish what i desire.

Wednesday's auditions proved how something can go as smooth when everyone works hand in hand,
never complaining, never bragging.
we shall make it a practise.

realised friends are low on the morale right now,
i will continue to help out and boost your morales even tho i got none left.
whatever it takes to help build you up.

heres one for a kick start.
you should stop looking at what others dun have and pondering on what you dun have.
instead,
try find something that you have that others don't,
if you don't appreciate yourself, you think others will give a damn about you?

i also dun think its wrong to be proud of yourself, tho others might be thinking you're bragging.
well if you work hard for it and eventually got thru it, you should be sharing with some about your life story right? who knows it might inspire them?

now i really cant wait to seeing the future SGC freshies.

tanya baby you are missed.

Labels: yo i need some sorta love in my life you dig me?

Tuesday, May 05, 2009, 3:04 PM

updating on TanyaGillianBeins accord:D
sending some love to dubai from Ash.

been really caught up with school stuffs,
Preview yesterday for Momentum went on fine,
so goina be caught up again for auditions today and tommorrow.

woke up with aching joints, neck and my hurting throat.

been having wrist problems since 2 weeks ago, i think it really has been dislocated,
cos pain is encountered when i apply pressure. hmmm

new problems arises, more than what a 20 year old person can handle.
have to think about my own house when i start goin NS, according to my grandmother.
and should already have to take care of my own sickly dad.
as according to my grandmother she's goina stay with my uncle,
and since my relatives dun like me, i dun have a spot and grandma is sick of taking care of daddy.

feel loved, cared for and to be assured that i have my back supported on, thats the only things that i need right now.

give me one good reason thats worth fighting and living for,
cos i have yet to find a reason to live for.

too personal a post.

i've lost so much, i dun wana lose anything more.

mad shoutouts to Tanya baby:)

Labels: my art of war will leave you sore from the abuse.

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