It takes effort and strength, even in numbers for people to cheer you up or even to get yourself cheered up. But it just takes one mini incident or a few sentences to bring your morale down right to negativity. Its odd how so small the words are so powerful in doing so.

These few weeks my morale has been tested. Repeatedly i've been brought to the ground just by some unappreciative FRIENDS. Because of words stabbed right in the face and dead at the back. Words that i dun expect it would come from them.

but i've been thinking, with tanya's help.
Since when did Ash bothers about what other people think of him? or since when does Ash listens to what others talk about him?

He never bothers about what other people think about him, he never listens to what people tell him. he doesnt even do what he was told to do so.
what he likes doing is taking matters into his own hands, act like one big muhfcuker and even handles matters that is not his to handle.
This is the reason why i've achieved whatever i want to achieve, however doing what he likes done.

That would be Me.

whatever you do, you cant change me nor you can cheat me.
like theres once Ragu told me of this Indian saying...
"you can bent a plant to make it grow towards wherever you want it to grow,
however you can bend a tree thats all full grown and thick"
well its not as if you guys never worked with me before.

i wana see how you people intend to make my life miserable, when it already is.