
Hari Raya has always been a time for me to feel low these years.
Besides buying the "baju melayu" alone and only matching with sister,
Going to geylang would be such a heartache. Seeing families together,
the spirit of that is enough to bring me to knees.
and the major bring down on that day itself is the absence of grandmother.
maybe i'll just go to the main house, sit all alone and just watch tv.
ouh well, im an Unlucky child even at birth, what more now?
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if anyone remember, theres one time where i kept dreaming about smth in my sleep.
about walking up a hill, bringing a heavy bag and having difficulty walking cos its as though im pulled by the bag.
now since 7 days ago im dreaming about it again.
this time round, in a derelicted war-torned urban area,
its like those images of the Bronx decades ago in the days of dark.
and theres one time i had to bring my little step brother along.
i dreamt about pursuing something not within my sight.
i need to know what it means. im going crazy.
if the unconscious part of my mind is sending messages in dreams to try to save us from craziness, i want to know what it is.
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